Thursday, May 28, 2009

What if?

What if I talked to people the way they talked to me?

What if I lied to people the way they lie to me?

What if I let people down the way people let me down?

What if I hurt people's feelings like people hurt mine?

What if I thought I was a better person, parent, friend, business woman, wife than other people?

What if I was as judge mental as other people?

What if...?

But here's the thing....I'm not! I am NONE of those things and because of that fact I am always the person who gets mistreated, lied to, let down, my feelings hurt, questions myself and gets judged. Because I LOVE with my WHOLE heart and want to see the good in every human being I get trampled on and taken advantage of! I get lied to and walked all over!

The truth? As much as it hurts and upsets me, I don't want to be anything different. I am me and I love who I am! I am an obnoxiously optimistic person and know that there is always a silver lining to every cloud! There will always be sunshine around the corner if I look hard enough! I am just like my grandfather, if he had twenty dollars and only needed ten he would give away the other ten just cause someone else needed it more than him. He was a ray of sunshine on every cloudy day! I am proud to be that kind of person. As much as I don't want them to get hurt, I want my children to be like me.

Because what I have that those people don't, is to know what it is like to love with your whole heart! And as much as it hurts when it gets broken, it's worth every minute just to have felt it!

Tahoe Girl

9 comments:

clemsongirlandthecoach said...

Girl. You know I know exactly what you're talking about.

Liars stink.

Hurt feelings stink.

Keep doing what you're doing.

Screw the rest of 'em.

flip flops and pearls said...

wow......i could have posted something to this today....

ya know....those who anger you control you....
and i won't give them that control.

i think your doing the right thing.....doing the right thing doesn't always feel "good" but it is the "right" thing. i do it for myself. as much as i want to scream and say WHY DO YOU DO/SAY/ACT like xxx... i keep my mouth shut and be the bigger person. not always the easy thing to go.

I can sympathize with you.
hope tomorrow is a better day;)

Imjustagirl said...

It is a round world and those who are nasty will get nasty in return. Sometimes its hard to remember that but it was keeps me loving whole heartedly!

Jillian, Inc said...

*ugh* So sorry. In the end, though, the nice girl really does finish FIRST.

BLC :o said...

This is a fabulous post. Thanks for sharing. Xoxo-BLC

Hillcrest Acres said...

Holy cow...you just wrote what I was thinking. Friends always say I'm way to nice. It's the way I was raised, to treat people as you would want to be treated. To go above and beyond for family and friends. And I keep getting taken advantage of and feelings hurt. I've asked myself why...why does this keep happening.

I completely agree with your words. I am who I am. I watch out for my friends, I'm loyal and trustworthy. I would bend over backwards to help a friend in need. I can't change...I don't want to change...I'm just being me.

sunshine and snoopy said...

I just wanted to say that I love you, and I love who you are. I think you are an amazing person, parent, and friend. I am so thankful that you are who you are and that I get to have you in my life. I am proud of you. Being positve and hopeful and open are hard things to be, but in the end that is what makes up who you are and anyone that really knows and loves you would not change that for the world. Your kids are so lucky to get to have that kind of example of a consistant positive attitude. My Dad was (is) that for me and it has made me who I am. You are giving them a priceless gift. Hug yourself for me!

julie said...

Love your blog!!! I'm a first time reader...love the post...you could be me! Just went through the potty training of the 3rd...I'm with you...let them go to k5 in a pullup...but once I just let the pullups run out then that was it..even night time!

Elizabeth said...

Love your attitude!